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(01) I am coming into this month with a sense of all encompasing & radical acceptance of myself. I feel comfortable with myself. I will try to hold this feeling all month. I've waited for August,
(02) I am carrying my camera with me, every-place-every-day,
(03) Depression & self discipline,
(04) Watching & rewatching Little Miss Sunshine (2006),
(05) Video games (Animal Crossing: New Leaf, Style Savvy: Trendsetters, Stardew Valley (co-op with my brother)),
(06) Depression on the bus, crying on the bus, sleeping on the bus,
(07) Boba & other such drinks
(01) Train to school in the mornings,
(02) Care about clothes again: I bring a change of clothes with me & treat my school dress code like a uniform to change out of,
(03) Cooking every day,
(04) Old orange messenger bag, new pins from Japan,
(05) Canned coffee & (diminishing) pleasure almost exclusively from food & drink,
(06) A girl from school (Angeline) started driving me to class; disenchantment with our small & sickly train,
(07) Forgetting how to be minful vs. how to be indulgent, though I have reached a level of non-attachment where I am no longer attached to the idea of non-attachment; this is to say that I can buy a book just as easily as I can give it away,
(08) Sonny Angels,
(09) I feel okay buying food, etc. for myself again,
(10) I will be student teaching in a classroom full of children in less than a month, & I am not scared at all.
In Japan I went to 7-11 every morning. Cream Sweets Coffee Jelly. 7-11 café au lait. Peel the lid & wait for it to pour. E made miso soup most mornings; loose leaf green tea. Ate with her grandma. I ate a lot of noodles. Ate ramen those last nights. We went to Starbucks a few times: Espresso Affogato Frappuccino, something I can’t get in the States. Shirts from Uniqlo. Walked by rice paddies every day. Enjoyed the train. Slept in E’s bedroom. 3 week sleepover.
(01) Stopped listening to music halfway through the month, (but I listened to one song for my birthday: The Only Thing),
(02) Bird sounds & reading books,
(03) I got my associate's degree,
(04) I turned 22,
(05) E says my small, purple purse looks “adult;” I laughed but I see it: A stained Coach purse I’ve had since childhood,
(06) I bought a sad, sad wardrobe for teaching from the thrift store, but I’m viewing it through a spiritual lens,
(07) Sunglasses again,
(08) Less communication with others, but less loneliness,
(09) Website revamp, (no explanations),
(10) Thinking of taking up some physical, analog writing again,
(11) I'm okay with being messy sometimes: A pile of laundry is not the end of the world, or even something worth a lament,
(12) Still interested in reading about various saints
(13) The trip to Japan is fast approaching & this month is my "long weekend,"
(14) Rice crackers!
(15) Not depressed, not manic, but what is probably "normal" for me: a bit melancholic but steadfast,
(16) Japanese literature before the trip
(01) Transitioned to a new purse: A tote-bag shaped like a composition book; I have yet to migrate all of my pins,
(02) More driving & ate a lot of pho,
(03) (Mostly) quit hitting snooze on my alarm,
(04) Wearing a pair of diamond stud earrings & a matching gold necklace,
(05) Hair gel,
(06) General sense of religiosity,
(07) Start of a yoga habit,
(08) Averaging about ~2hrs of screentime: The need to shoot my phone,
(09) Less desire to listen to music as I go about my day,
(10) Have not been recording my dreams as strictly as I used to,
(11) Hypomanic episode ?
(12) Into BOTW again
