12/01/2024; Churchlight & suicidal in Walmart; Sore throat from singing & sore throat from crying.
11/29/2024; Bouquet of flowers & bouquet of stickers; flower stems on the counter.
11/26/2024; The smallest rainbow (on a clear day).
11/19/2024; White pigeon.
11/18/2024; Early morning rain on the bus window, indoor recess.
11/15/2024; Large-large moon rising; rainbow halo as it moved away from us.
11/14/2024; My old best friend's birthday.
11/13/2024; I could not breathe.
11/12/2024; The bus smelled like the inside of a dirty vacuum cleaner.
11/11/2024; Another deer this morning; deer, no deer, deer, deer.
11/10/2024; Chamomile bouquet.
Halo 'round the moon with Saturn.
Visible light in the church again.
A deer this morning, a deer last-last night.
11/07/2024; Headphones off.
11/06/2024; A sky that could not be captured in a photo.
11/05/2024; Vultures on a rooftop.
11/04/2024; A peregrine falcon by the school-buses; the shadow(s) of a flight of birds.
10/31/2024; Autumn wind & the emotion of telephone wires.
10/29/2024; One step away from being run over.
10/27/2024; Visible morning light through the church window, geometric light.
10/26/2024; Bells & incense; evening light in the church.
10/25/2024; The smell of raw meat in the grocery store.
10/22/2024; The flower bud is dead.
10/21/2024; Cannot tell if a flower bud is dead or alive in its vase.
10/20/2024; Visible light.
10/17/2024; The geometry of telephone wires on a cool day.
10/16/2024; Cold autumn night, telephone wires, the moon.
Moldy, dead bouquets. Murky water.
10/15/2024; Email from “an unworthy priest.”
10/08/2024; Prayers in threes last night.
10/07/2024; I can't remember anything from today. Bouquet still in its plastic, water evaporated out of the vase.
10/05/2024; Biggesthinnest crescent moon that I have ever seen. Red perigee.
09/30/2024; My depression & my shadow & my lamp.
09/25/2024; A cricket in my shirt this morning.
Autumn breeze.
09/23/2024; A ladder leading up to an empty patch of sky.
A lone firefly.
09/22/2024; Wilted lilies in the kitchen trash can.
A cloud looked like a flea, a parasite & then looked like a bird.
09/21/2024; Shadow of wires on my bedroom wall.
09/17/2024; Silhouettes of smiles and hands waving at me from the schoolbuses.
09/15/2024; A rainbow when I wanted to kill myself.
09/12/2024; The lilies are freckled and open.
09/10/2024; My white underwear are stained with blood.
09/09/2024; Pink lilies in a vase by a closed window.
Rainbow in a sprinkler.
09/08/2024; Pink lilies in a vase on my desk that are blooming.
09/07/2024; Pink lilies in a vase on my desk that have yet to bloom.
09/06/2024; Two raccoons ran in front of the car; unscathed.
08/29/2024; When I woke up this morning I found a dead roach in my bed.
08/27/2024; The sky & the breeze, already gone.
08/26/2024; There were raindrops on only one side of the bus.
08/26/2024; The AC was out this morning when I felt sick to my stomach.
08/24/2024; I saw a great, big owl.
08/23/2024; I watched a woman cut my father's hair. I felt an authentic & meditative love for the woman that I did not know.
08/23/2024; I felt better after school today.
08/15/2024; This week I learned to sleep on the bus.
08/10/2024; I saw a pair of geese in flight yesterday & a patch of sunflowers today that reminded me of my friend, (a different kind of bird). If you are reading this, I love you!
08/09/2024; I wrote a grocery list in my new journal.
08/08/2024; I bit the nail on my left pinkie so low while studying that it started bleeding.
08/07/2024; My dog likes laying on my bed when it has a pile of clean laundry on it.
08/06/2024; One of my comforters is blue & the other two are white. The blue one is always on the bottom.
08/05/2024; I drove on the highway for the first time & three people honked at me. I could have wrecked the car.
08/04/2024; There was a sudden rainstorm while I was driving. I saw pigeons huddle together under an overpass.
07/31/2024; There were little rainbows sprinkled across my room like confetti when I came home from school today. I've never seen so many.
07/30/2024; I saw found a purple paper crane. I saw a deer in the park at night.
07/22/2024; I saw five deer out the train window.
07/21/2024; The moon was pink last night. I played a game where I would stand in spots so the moon looked like it was perched on the telephone wires, like a pigeon.
07/20/2024; A green onion blooming in the garden: Scallionhope.
07/19/2024; There are five flowers blooming outside my window. The moon was so bright that I started seeing spots.
07/18/2024; There is one flower blooming outside my window.
07/16/2024; My bed hasn't been made for two weeks now.
07/15/2024; It was hot enough for me to feel my heartbeat.
07/14/2024; I woke up last night with a tight chest. I thought I saw something nondescript outside of my window, a floating spot.
07/10/2024; My computer screen & the lenses to my glasses are always dirty, smudged, normally imperceptibly (to me).
07/08/2024; I had an intense sense of déjà vu at school today. Then it felt like I had lived this day in a dream.
07/01/2024; Looked for deer out the train window & only found homeless camps.
06/25/2024; A burning feeling in the hands. A month is a long time & it’s not a long time at all.
06/19/2024; The telephone wires are different here, like Chūya's poem.
05/31/2024; The aching in my fingers feels deep, towards the bone, ebbing & flowing with my heartbeat.
05/30/2024; The rain was so soft that I thought the sound of it was wind.
05/30/2024; I held a washcloth over the bath & watched water drip from it. Some of the drips were steady and some were unsteady.
05/29/2024; A straw cast a shadow so dark & so clean over my hand that for a moment I thought it was drawn on with marker.